Have you ever felt your heart has a lot to say, but your head kept getting in the way? My heart is so full of something to express, but sitting down to pull it out into written form is nearly impossible. The “me” from five years ago is still there, but has become subdued by the medications that were prescribed to me. It doesn’t affect my performance as a working individual. It affects my ability to write down my feelings.
In Biblical terms it’s the spirit at war with the soul. The will not giving up shows itself as an unbent neck. In the Bible I concluded that the reason a person bends his head forward in front of dignitaries was to show a contrite soul. The neck bearing the semblance of the will. The heart being the spirit. Until I can bend my will against the rule of my soul, my spirit cannot express itself.
Sometimes I feel like I’ve not just lost a battle but the whole war. Yet, I will still overcome. I’m too stubborn to summarily give up.
I'm a 72 yr old guy, who had worked in Naval Hospital Camp Lejeune for 28 yrs and now retired as of 31 Dec 16. I've worked in medical records, Health Benefits Department, Billing, the IT department and retired as the Personnel Security Manager for the hospital. I'm a musician and Corvette enthusiast. Yes, I have had two. I traded my second Corvette for a Harley Davidson Fat Boy mid-summer 2019. I've already ridden about seven thousand miles. I'm also searching for a fresh new outlook on life with new spiritual insight among other things. I was ordained a minister on 20190202. I've become certified with the American Chaplaincy Association through Aidan University in June '21. I've found that with the unconditional love of my companion, Libby Rowe life is complete through God. She's a beautiful, vibrant, giving woman who gives her all in everything she puts her mind to do. She and I married on 24 July 2015. She was ordained in February 2022. She has a blog too called Under a Carolina Moon. Give it a visit.
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