I’ve put my transgressions before God and pleaded for forgiveness, because He alone can forgive. Yes, I did apologize to those who were deeply involved. Yes I did ask for forgiveness. They said they did forgive me, but I still feel their sting. They have not truly forgiven me. I will not ask them again.
I’m sure of one thing. I learned how angry people can get and how long they can hold it. They don’t say so, but it’s evident in their actions.
I’ve also learned something far more valuable, though. Unconditional love is a valuable thing to know. I learned it more from someone who had no solid Christian background, but had to have learned it by some relationship with God. Unconditional love is not a basic human condition. Most love is based on conditions.
I am more than glad to have experienced (and continue to do so) unconditional love from a woman who, when she looks at me, has that look in her eyes that she could eat me with a spoon. She can’t look at me without smiling. She looks giddy when she looks at me. To me that makes her the most beautiful woman in the world and I melt inside from her looks.
Some things we say between each other are sacred and not spoken elsewhere. We speak to each other with our souls bared openly for both to see. We hold no secrets of any kind. I feel that comfortable with her. She holds my heart in her hands on the deepest of levels and doesn’t betray me. I would dare not betray her either. Anyone who loves me that much is so disarming I simply can’t carry that kind of thought against her. She’s as important to me as my own body, soul and spirit.