OCD Leaves Me In A Flux

Lately it’s been sort of a “what to do” phase. Being pretty much organized with everything in its place and a place for everything it’s kind of difficult to do when you have other people in your house who have little organizational skills. Even my fridge is so full of useless items it’s hard to find what is mine.

Take this as a “for instance”. We have to get up every morning at four. My wife has to be to work at six and my first bus run starts at 5:55 am. I do the breakfast while my wife gets ready for work. I scramble her eggs and set out her salsa, which she adds to it. Some mornings she will ask for scrambled with cheese and bacon bits. I turn on the coffee and while I’m cooking her breakfast I pour my coffee. Then when I set out her bowl of food, I prepare mine. Two fried eggs with bacon bits and mozzarella cheese.

To get to the point above in a timely fashion I require the following. The night before I set out a small frying pan, spatula, and two bowls with spoons on the stove top. Water goes into the coffee maker with the needed amount of coffee. My cup is set down with sweetener and no-sugar creamer. A drying towel is next to the stove top to put the eggs on so they don’t roll off the counter. So now the morning will go smoothly once this is done. I can’t do this and go to bed early when the extras in my house don’t cook dinner until eight pm. Getting up at four requires an early bedtime.

Fortunately, they will be gone shortly, but it crimps my timing and sense of order. I’m also living out of a box in our bedroom, because they inhabit my guest room where I keep my clothes so my wife and I don’t run into each other while getting ready in the morning.

I can’t help it. I’m OCD. Always have been. If I still ate M&M’s I’d pour them out and put them in order by color. When I worked in an office setting, one friend of mine noticed what I was doing and if I wasn’t looking, she’d miss-match them. Drove me nuts. Everything has to be symmetrical. I can’t stand lopsidedness. Everything has to balance.

With all this stuff going on and my ways, it has left me in a flux. I can’t nail anything down. Everything moves about the time I put it all where I want it. I don’t live with this condition very well.

I don’t suppose I can bad-mouth the extras in the house. They don’t have my condition. Even then if they did they might have an idea of where things go that don’t match up to my balance of life. So, I will muddle through for another week and hopefully I can get back to normal.

On another note. Something else has thrown me off track. I was conscripted to play a Roman soldier in an Easter play. I don’t really celebrate Easter. By in large, the back drop of Easter is pagan. Of course Jesus died on the cross and resurrected. That I firmly believe, but just like Christmas and Santa Claus, we have the Easter bunny. I won’t get into the depths of my thoughts on holidays. I simply put up with them knowing it’s a good time to get family (or what’s left of it) together and share some time in one place. One oddity I note here just to mention it. The Fed recognizes Christmas, but not Easter as a holiday. Why one and not the other? Our state recognizes both.

Now I’m rambling. I guess I should look to see if the stove top is cleared so I can set up and go to bed.

About Jim

I'm a 72 yr old guy, who had worked in Naval Hospital Camp Lejeune for 28 yrs and now retired as of 31 Dec 16. I've worked in medical records, Health Benefits Department, Billing, the IT department and retired as the Personnel Security Manager for the hospital. I'm a musician and Corvette enthusiast. Yes, I have had two. I traded my second Corvette for a Harley Davidson Fat Boy mid-summer 2019. I've already ridden about seven thousand miles. I'm also searching for a fresh new outlook on life with new spiritual insight among other things. I was ordained a minister on 20190202. I've become certified with the American Chaplaincy Association through Aidan University in June '21. I've found that with the unconditional love of my companion, Libby Rowe life is complete through God. She's a beautiful, vibrant, giving woman who gives her all in everything she puts her mind to do. She and I married on 24 July 2015. She was ordained in February 2022. She has a blog too called Under a Carolina Moon. Give it a visit.
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2 Responses to OCD Leaves Me In A Flux

  1. My brother is OCD too. He drives me crazy sometimes but I can’t gripe to much because I am a little OCD too. And if something is not in the right place or my bed is messed up right after making it, it will make me go crazy.😂 So, I understand how you feel.

  2. Equipping says:

    Thanks for all that you do with your blog; please keep up your good work.

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