Change of Priorities

I’m 71 years old now. Priorities are changing. I used to feel more comfortable watching TV or something to make things around me different for convenience’s sake.

Not so much anymore. I feel more of a leaning towards making my spiritual side more relevant. What kind of condition am I in? To be honest I find myself wanting to prepare myself for the inevitable in not so many years. I feel I have more to give and I shall. Actually, I find myself more solidly sure of my salvation. I sense God more keenly than ever before.

Instead of watching TV, I find myself writing a book now on my concern for the lives of others that have fallen into mental despair. Life can be such a difficult place to be with all the circumstances that flood the mind with needless fodder.

Since the first of this year, I found myself back in school to become a certified Chaplain. The deeper into the class I got the more I realized I had things to say. Then towards the end of the class, I found myself signing up for yet another certification.

Suicide Awareness & Prevention came next and I finished that as well. Then God gave me the title for a book to write and presently I’m around forty-five pages into my book titled “Suicide – Satan’s Killing Field”. It’s turning into more than just a book on suicide, yet it is more just that than I realized in its overall content.

If you’re not a Christian or don’t adhere to a belief system that includes Jesus Christ, I can’t sway you. Believe me, I’m not going to try, but I will tell you if you don’t you will the day your eyes shut for the last time. Then what?

Even if I were wrong, I don’t want to go against the experiences I have encountered in life that tells me there is a God with whom I converse and have done so for most of my life. He isn’t some imaginary friend.

The things He has told me have been real. Astonishingly real at first, but as time wove on in the fabric of my life I have found a tapestry of life that includes the thread of His words woven into it. It has made my cloth very durable here at this end where it has covered me in protection against the elements of life like no clothing could. Not even the forthcoming passing of my body will be my end.

My cocoon will be shed for the coming life as a butterfly that can soar into the heavens and experience God in His fullness. If you can’t say that or some semblance of it then you need to stop and search your soul.

When my brother was dying of lung cancer I asked him was he afraid of dying. His reply was a staunch no. I was with him when he died and he was at peace. I expect the same for me as well. I am at peace with myself already, but I know God is not done with me as yet, so I expect to remain for yet another while.

I have reached the point in my life where I have to implore people to realize their mortality and weigh it against what will become of them in immortality.

It is for me to let people know that there is a tomorrow until their day is finished here on earth and then to come home to their creator. No matter how hard it may seem. No matter what may come to bring you down you should fight against it till you have conquered the enemy of your soul in order to make you stronger. Those battles with your mind aren’t meant to kill you. They are meant to bring strength to you and make you more durable on this plane.

Suicide is not the easy way out. it’s the way of the loser in life and I mean that in a way of what you’ll miss out on. Not that you’re no good at life. You’ll lose watching yourself mature in your spirituality. You’ll lose out on seeing the positive effects you’ll have on other people around you. Your family needs to see your abilities to push them forward into a better reality.

Circumstances are not your reality. They only come to confirm you are worth fighting for because they are here to destroy you for fear of what a difference you can make to the good in someone else’s life. Don’t let the negatives of life destroy you. Turn them into a positive. You have that ability. Use them to charge your life with positive results that will bring an energy that can only bring someone else higher into their successfulness in creation.

Suicide only abruptly ends what could have been the lead into the success of not only your life but affect possibly untold numbers of other people as well. Don’t give up. Their success will depend on yours.

I can’t express it hard enough to those of you considering dismissing your life to such an end as suicide will be. You need to know your worth. Suicide only speaks to you of your being unworthy. But God speaks to you or your worthiness in Him. He made you so because He sent His Son to die for you. That shed blood makes you worth everything and continues to do so day after day after day.

And for those of you that say suicide is not even on your radar, I ask one question. Have you appropriated your gift of life that has been made for you? If you have not and die without doing so you have as good as committed suicide. You don’t have to die without that gift being received by you. It’s yours.

My heart aches for you and others if you have not done so. The regeneration of your spirit to save your soul has been provided to you to give you life everlasting in Him who saw fit to reverse the curse of death upon all born under the first Adam.

Don’t let another day go by without knowing you have a way to walk away from death and into eternal life. My heart is full with this knowledge. Let it be yours as well.

About Jim

I'm a 71 yr old guy, who had worked in Naval Hospital Camp Lejeune for 28 yrs and now retired as of 31 Dec 16. I've worked in medical records, Health Benefits Department, Billing, the IT department and retired as the Personnel Security Manager for the hospital. I'm a musician and Corvette enthusiast. Yes, I have had two. I traded my second Corvette for a Harley Davidson Fat Boy mid-summer 2019. I've already ridden about five thousand miles. I'm also searching for a fresh new outlook on life with new spiritual insight among other things. I was ordained a minister on 20190202. I'm working on my studies with the American Chaplaincy Association through Aidan University. I've found that with the unconditional love of my companion, Libby Rowe life is complete through God. She's a beautiful, vibrant, giving woman who gives her all in everything she puts her mind to do. She and I married 24 July 2015. She's also taking the Apprentice course to obtain her ordination as well. She finished her first year of study and has been ordained as an Exhorter. She has a blog too called Under a Carolina Moon. Give it a visit.
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