I take stock of life in general daily. After stopping a moment to tell God that I love Him just for who He is, I look at things around me.
I got up this morning as usual to go out and take my kiddos to school in the middle and elementary age groups. As I traveled out I found myself robotically making my stops and counting the number of students that get on. It was good to see them. I have to say I’m blessed with a good group of a little over 40 total students in the morning. I will have somewhere closer to 60 in the afternoon. Their lives are precious yet I see the ways of this world forming and controlling them and that makes me sad. This is why I drive. I speak into their lives as I am allowed about how to behave and treat others.
Even with the above notation of my morning I am also talking with God all along the route. He and I had a good conversation this morning. I’m coming to realize He has softened the harsh reality of my mortality. Being seventy-two means I haven’t no way as many years ahead of me as I’ve had behind me. He has introduced me to something this past week that has given me insight into what goes on in the infinite. I’m still trying to wrap my thoughts around that. However it has created a greater understanding of what I have to look forward to when I cross through the veil from this body. It seems like I’m prepping for the hereafter. It gives me to wondering when that will be. To me it would seem like I should get my affairs in order, but God kind of rebuked me. He speaks of more time for me and to not dwell on dying as yet, but to indeed get my affairs more in line with keeping my wife safe after I’m gone. To some this may sound morbid, but in actuality we must all face that inevitability with a sober mind.
So, now I’m back home and feeling well. My body is not in distress and everything is in order. I believe God’s conversation with me and I look forward to having more to do and time to do it. I never consider taking my own life. That is not in question. I’ve always been an analyst by nature and put things in order so that I may understand what is happening.
I suppose the whole thing I’m getting at here is to say that all the drama that can be contrived needs to be settled. We don’t need to have aught with anyone. We need to forgive everyone. Make everything right with God every day. It is good to examine ourselves to see where we stand, but we need not dwell on it obsessively. In all reality we should be asking our Father what we can do in this world to make it better. How do we show the world who He is? We need to concentrate of putting on the mind of Christ in this earth and letting it become our conversation.