It’s been a long time since my last post. I have changed so much in my absence from this blog of mine. I once thought I had it all together. I’m pretty sure I did. What changed? I got lax and lazy in doing other things. One of my problems is that I’ve gone into another stage of life that has begun to limit me physically. I had a surgical procedure called a TURP. It’s the old man Roto-Rooter. The biopsy of the tissue removed proved to be cancerous. Thank God it is not so invasive that I need treatment. It’s a slow-growing form of cancer, so for the time being I’m only montored. I have another biopsy around November. I’m at peace with that.

However, physical limitations are setting in, and I’m not able to do what I consider to be typically easy tasks without pain setting in. I’m convinced I may need some heart maintenance of some sort. Then again, I need not pretend to be a doctor. I have brought it up to my doctor my last visit and he just kind of poo pooed it. He seems to think the pains I’m having aren’t heart-related.

I could be a wreck mentally. I stopped taking my Zoloft months ago because I got tired of not having emotional responses. I wanted to feel things that would make me react to situations like either laugh or cry. I had not done that in years. I do sense anxiety prevading my thoughts at times.

My soulish side has tried to overtake my spiritual man and drag me back into the worldly ways of thinking with all the lusts that rule in that realm. I’m trying to correct this course. I need to get back to meditating on spiritual things. That is a struggle.

I’ve come to a place in my Christian walk that has changed me more than anything else. With the Protestant mentality that has ruled my base of thinking, I came to realize I needed to expand my boundaries. Sixty-six books have begun to keep me from that. The Catholic Bible has 73 books, and the Ethiopian Bible has up to 88 books, depending on who’s counting. Some scholars say there are many more books that that. The Eastern/Greek Orthodox Bible has 76 books.

Michael Hiser has flipped my thinking upside-down. Lynn Hiles changed the way to approach the Gospels like I’d never thought about. Their teachings blend very well into all that I heard over thirty years under my mentor, Dr. Kelley H. Varner. Ravi Zacharias is a genius in Apologetics. All but one of these men have passed through the veil. Some have tried to smear the names of at least one of these, but the truth remains to be seen by one’s research.

We have always been taught that we have a monotheistic belief, and in a way, we do. But I’ve come to understand that God is not alone. There is God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit, but that’s not all there is. The reason for the sixty-six book Bible we have I declare to stifle my belief foundation is that certain of the church fathers could not bring themselves to tell the whole truth.

My local church associate pastor introduced me to Michael Hiser. He is a deeply involved student of the afterlife. There are so many hints in the Protestant Bible of the things hidden in just the Book of Enoch. I’ve read this book through twice and I’m about to embark on another reading of it. It is a loaded book. There is so much told in that one book to keep scholarly people busy for the rest of their lives. It names the names of characters that rule and attempt to rule in the timeless realm. I’m not even scratching the surface of what I’ve come to know. I’ve seen things and let them mellow and gone back to them to see if they still hold up and so far I cannot revert to my old ways of thinking about God.

God is indeed the one and only God. He is the Head of all things, but He has a council called the Sons of God. When He said in scripture, “Let us make man in our image, Genesis 1:26, he wasn’t talking about the trinity as most would think. God was declaring to the counsel of God His decision to make a man in His image, that is, higher than all others.

To make this interesting, in my studies, I contend that there were other humans present on the earth, but this new creation had higher qualities than all others. This new man was created and then placed in the garden. This garden was a special place for God’s special creation. He gave them every opportunity to grow and expand this garden to cover the whole earth, as I see it. The fall of the first Adam and the recovery of that status in the Last Adam gives all people of the earth the opportunity to become one with God in that original covenant through adoption. God bestows that complete salvation to everyone.

The problem lies in one thing that I have not yet concluded thoughts on. Not everyone on Earth who has a human form is human inside. God destroyed the earth that existed before Noah because of the Nephilim. These were the offspring of fallen entities from heaven with earthly women. They were giants. This is where I can only assume is where Goliath came from. He was some remnant of that age somehow. The Protestant Bible has many unanswered questions that come to light when reading the writings that early church fathers disavowed, because I feel they thought it would not be good for regular people to know about.

Well, you see, I am still around and thinking, but I am nowhere near who I used to be. The books in other Bibles really do clear up a lot of questions in the Protestant Bible. I would say to anyone reading this, don’t let yourself have blinders put on you. You will not be able to see the whole truth of God until you take them off.